Sunday, December 31, 2006

HELLO 2007,
i'm gonna cross over to ya with my baby.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

I'm back to mention,
i'm afraid of blood.

I dreamt that i vomited.
After which was just vomiting blood.
But there's like no pain and i was vomiting like this:

I puked like a Merlion.Cept that Merlion puke water.
Then I went limp,
I dunno who helped me to lie down and rest
THERE.I created my own horror movie.
sorry that the person in picture look like a boy
its easier to draw a boy
but i'm not a boy.

I got new pillow.

Monday, December 25, 2006



Thank you BIG angel (Yoke Chong) for the gift! New Havainas=)
Thank you Eileen Fu for your snail mail card
Thank you Sharon for the wonderful gathering on Xmas Eve that lasted till Xmas morning
Thank you Elinn and Brenda for waking up early on Xmas Eve to go wet market with me,and wrapping lots and lots of Wantons
Thank you Jac,Sharon,Yenxin,Yian for the cards
Thank you YiWen for the cute pouch
Thank you Huimei for the fruit loops

Thank you darling, for lots and lots of things.I love you.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

I hold so dear.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

can i get a bigbig xmas gift coz i did well in my exams?

i think i did well if the results are correct as of now.


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

A day out to Ah Fu's Commisioning Parade!
We got stuck on the stupid shuttle bus and got bored coz we were the only 3 early birds on the bus.

pretty UNGLAM

with CY it's totally unglam.

Told you.

The parade begins!Not forgetting that we went in like close to 2 hrs earlyjust to sneak in.

The clever me managed to used MH's POWERFUL camera to spot AH FU!

The usual thing......

Bless you.


AH fu's smile never change,CY still look as unglam.Not that there isnt any glam pics.BUT we have decided against putting nice ones of him.

NICE ones of us girls can already=D

Then is dinner at Fish & Co,where we celebrated Farhan's birthday!Be touched!

MH forbid him to blow out the candles this way

this instead.

We were pretty irritated by the woman behind who talked non-stop.



That's why the fish tree will become bare.

And the fish drowned.

PS.Ah Fu is rich now.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

I know it's far from my birthday,BUT!
check out the novelty cakes section.

Now i think i can have carebear cake for my birthday!=)

Monday, December 04, 2006


Why time seems to pass by ever so quickly when i don't wanna?

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

he made me feel guilt.

Monday, November 27, 2006

On loop:

Marcos Hernandez- The way I do.

those times.

Actions against thoughts.

Am i fully accepted for who i am or looked upon by my flaws.Such that everything around me seem to be of such low standards.
Maybe i came from the dustbin and have friends deem trash.

Dear XXX,

Can you mark my paper leniently coz all the while i was enduring funky smell from this girl beside me and weird odour from the guy in front?I couldn't concentrate.I swear i was using the jacket as a gas mask.

Oh and in the morning the smell was so horrible from this guy who coincidently is from the same Econs tutorial class as me.
I wanted to vomit right on the spot and there was virtually nowhere to shift ourselves from him.Ask Marli.

I recommend teachings of hygiene during exam period.It seems some of the students are too caught up with books that they forgot the existence of shower rooms.
Mug hard,bathe!


Sunday, November 26, 2006

I dunno how to face it.



All the wrong stuff.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

My house rear pigs.

Whenever i have no school and wanna sleep in, my brother sister mother father whoever will bug me at like between 12-2 to EAT coz they bought food already. This is especially true on Sundays which i can predict, 99.9% of the time will be chicken rice.

At 5 plus 6, i will be bugged to eat DINNER like just now my brother called to pester me and my sister to be back to have dinner asap or else we will suffer.

If we don't get back to eat or i don't wake up to eat, the food they leave for me will be damn a lot which therefore, it is wiser to wake up/ be back on time to eat, which otherwise means eat will the majority and not be the last one to clear the food.

I'm used to eating lunch at 2-4plus or not eating, and dinner at after 8 or not eat?
I'm typing as if i'm talking like a bullet train so please pardon me coz i think i haven't been out for very long and i changed shampoo coz my sis says it's cheaper and therefore being cheapos we bought it but i paid for it so technically its mine but i bet she will use it.


On a side note, my mum complains that i sleep late but i told her nobody sleeps early in uni. AndDr kkseet said we should be able to pull all nighters? Ok that one i simply cannot make it.

Anyhows, i cut my hair already.And i bought 4D. Give me luck baby.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

And all good things left me this way.

Misfit is in me i guess.

Friday, November 10, 2006

I sound like a smartass but i seriously am dumb.
I want to make things ok but i don't know how.
I'm a complete idiot.

I'm taught to not blame anybody but myself
yea, so now it's my fault
i'm socialized to be this way
now what.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

50th love Little India and can't get enough of it.
First up was meeting up with CTTC and MH, and headed to Little India station to meet up with the rest.
8plus.And no one else turned up.

MH got upset and hungry.

After which she tried to eat me.I intended to zap my fats away but nevermind,i shall be honest.

Initially we were heading to an Indian restaurant,knowing that its Indian food CTTC ate food at home prior to our meetup,which resulted in him not being very hungry.There was a change of plans and i brought them to The French Stall instead.

Talk about not being HUNGRY.

Sucha clown.

And all the while he was busy stealing MH's Pork Loin (pronounced as Loh-o-in by The clown).Mine he cannot steal,coz he cannot eat.


The last stop was sightseeing at Mustafa (and we bought milk at Mustafa leh.Cool right.) coz MH have never been there.She wanna get us killed by saying all the wrong stuff.What if they know Chinese?
And here we were,@ The French Stall.Oh the chef talked to us!Friendly chap=)
Where's Azmi,Farhan,Farah,YH and all!

On a side note,i saw the cow that look like a dogdog that look like a cow again.The first time i saw was with Brenda and it was too dark to capture on cam.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

He's cute lar.You angmoh can cook very well huh?

Be safe, don't play play.

Now this is drama or what.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

And so it is.


Thursday, October 19, 2006



Inside joke.GO watch transformers lah.Retro version one horrrr.
I have retro carebears cartoon too.WHERE DA HELL IS IT.


For more information, click here

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

It seems like we've only just begun.

Six baby, never gonna end=)

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Digimart was one sucky sucky roadshow.Suntec has the ultimate air-conditioning system ever, or maybe its just me not being able to stand the cold. I was missing my heater throughout the day, the warmth and everything else=( .
Today was the last of the two day event,and i guess the most memorable thing today was this--->While defrosting in the toilet (my favourite, warmest place of all), i saw this old old woman washing her hands.Apparently the technology baffled her coz she tried to wash her hands under the sensor water tap and the sensor refused to acknowledge her hands. I washed my hands walked to the pull out paper towels thingy, looking at her washing her hands still,and kinda missed my grandma.SIGH.But anyways i saw her hands, dripping wet and all, and her other friends who were a lil younger asked her to take the paper towels. I just pulled the towels and went forward to give her coz she still looked confused.

AIYA, i just miss my grandma.=(

Friday, October 06, 2006

Studying econs is damn bloody boring.
Happy mooncake or lantern day people, ok i know it's call MID-AUTUMN festival lar.

I made lanterns!

And darling wanted playboy bunny ones, wah lao imagine if got playboy bunny lanterns for kids.=S

And playboy girls.

Now tts kinda gross.


on a side note, i think my friends aren't introduced yet.

Say hi to my sch mates.They follow me to school evryday, rain or shine.

Monday, October 02, 2006

I don't like to cry.

Friday, September 29, 2006

I don't have really a high self-esteem.

I don't have really a high self-esteem.

I don't have really a high self-esteem.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

It feels like old me, stuck in the house with no life.
It's been like,close to 48hrs?
Or more than that, i dun even know.

This is when i think i have few friends.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Minutes without you.

Friday, September 22, 2006


Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Evelyn showed me an old ghostbusters theme song vid today,it's on her blog actually.


Saturday, September 02, 2006



yay im the last one=D

Monday, August 28, 2006

READ this

heI ppLE... doES neonE nOE iF thERe is a diFf bTw a DisCuSsioN gRp n a TutOriAL gRp... do we hAve tO registER fOr diScuSsIOn gRps sePEratEly or smTh?

here are the replies

Hello *XXX,

1) It's the same

2) On an unrelated note, am I the only one who find your style of placing capped letters randomly unsuitable for this forum?


heI ppLE... doES neonE nOE iF thERe is a diFf bTw a DisCuSsioN gRp n a TutOriAL gRp... do we hAve tO registER fOr diScuSsIOn gRps sePEratEly or smTh?

i thought ThIs Is NoT VeRY HeLPfUl iN CoMMuniCatIOn.

I thought this is very helpful in communication

compare which is easier to read. And you will agree with me.


IT'S A GUY AND ITS IN THE SCH's module forum.OMG.

*names have been changed to protect their that sound familiar.haha

Sunday, August 27, 2006

I create too much problems for my own good.
Maybe being nice is a problematic.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Thursday, August 17, 2006

On 4th July,i went back to Penang and finally got ta see my grandma again after 1 year plus,close to 2.I remember how she was sitting outside with us,telling us bout mangosteen,and peeling it for us to eat.I remember her asking me to go her workplace and watch the not hot at all women dancing and silly ah peks cheering for the not hot women.I remember how chirpy, laid back she is,riding her only mode of transport-Bicycle.Bicycle's like her BMW,just like how bicycle's my Mum's Porsche.Like mother,like daughter.

Now her BMW's wrecked,and i hate her workplace environment.

Why am i not having hols still?I wanna see my grandma.
Still,i know you'll be fine,i just know.

I don't like competitions,yet i camped in front of the com,waiting for the clock to strike 12AM.Then i refreshed my IVLE page to sign up for TS practical slot which i die die also wanna get.

Guess what,
I was the first to sign up.

But it was fun to chiong for it,and Evelyn was second and i managed to make Wanting 4th.Kiasu arses.

So what's school like and what i'll be like?

Monday, August 14, 2006

[ting] - taste of a poison paradise. says:
confirm garuantee chop
[ting] - taste of a poison paradise. says:
garuantee? guarantee?
The Celesbian™® -"OH."- diggin' your lips says:
[ting] - taste of a poison paradise. says:
oh no. undergrad cannot spell
[ting] - taste of a poison paradise. says:
The Celesbian™® -"OH."- diggin' your lips says:
The Celesbian™® -"OH."- diggin' your lips says:
die larrrr

omg this is embarassing.I think my spelling sucks as well.

I have been tagged by BRENDA THEN!

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

color: rainbow lah.almost everything,OH black n white too
food: cheese sausage w mashed potato!FAT OR WHAT.
songs: girls and boys,queer,the way i do...BLAH BLAH BLAH
movie: Monster,Neverending Story,Moulin Rouge,Gia,saving face,better than chocolate.OH I JUST REALISED ITS MOVIE not MOVIES.wadeva la.
sport: rockclimbing=D
day of the's sunday n SCHOOLS IN TOMORROW!OMG scary shite.
season: SUMMER
ice-cream: BEN & JERRY's!*waves sticker*

mood: scared.
taste: i dunno.
clothes: 30hrs famine camp shirt and fbt shorts
desktop: gOOd luck carebear=D
time: o1o9hrs.i cheated on the posting time.
surroundings: walls.
annoyance: I GOT THE SAME CAR CAR FOR THE THIRD TIME.ain't that annoying.

best friend: non existent.
crush: wth,dun rmb
movie: some chi film my dad brought me to monkeys one.
music: huh,dun rmb la.

cigarette: ages ago.haha
drink: green tea
ride: go kart=D
movie: click
phone call: "hot babe"

dated one of your best friends: no best friend anyways but still no ways.
been arrested: no
skinny-dipped: no=(
been on tv: national day parade!yay.
kissed someone you don't know: no lah!wth

4 things you did today: went MAAD ,tried my luck at capsule machine which sucked,played @ arcade and rawk at shootouts=D,doing this what do you call it,survey?
sounds you can hear right now: my heart thumping,the song playing,the com humming

the Chosen Five to do this!
1)tan yijun
2)tan cheeyong
4)my sis

school's tmr.S.C.H.O.O.L.
Just when i was glad to leave my prev school,i'm back to another school again.I miss the feeling of liking school.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

It's tough fighting with yourself,telling yourself not to be feeling so.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006


I hate myself.

I have the weakest heart ever,EVER.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

I'm really a bad example.
And now maybe you all are paying it back or trying to show how bad i am to mum and dad by getting home before i do.Or making sure i'm not home before you do.
Yeah i'm the rotten apple in the house.
I thought you all would have known better.
Well i feel used,and hurt.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

I'm lovin every moment from the past week till school starts=)

Beach,Short Cuts,fireworks,MEH MEHs...

Don't end.

Remembrances of what was.

Monday, July 31, 2006

If i accidentally broke/destroyed a thing of the past you had and once shared, will you
1)Let it be ,its a thing of the past,

2)Be mad and scold/shout/scream at me like i mean nothing to you?

What holds?
I read too much into shows for my own good.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

The Celesbian™® -"Embrace."- sympathy for the devil
u think my ________ will be there tmr?

The Celesbian™® -"Embrace."- sympathy for the devil


[ting] - captain jack sparrow: where's my thump-thump?
haha i dont think so leh. if not they would have called

The Celesbian™® -"Embrace."- sympathy for the devil

The Celesbian™® -"Embrace."- sympathy for the devil
i'll pray they call me tmr then

The Celesbian™® -"Embrace."- sympathy for the devil

The Celesbian™® -"Embrace."- sympathy for the devil
and i'll say 'Oh i'm right here,can pick up ASAP

Wah i prayed and i got my stuff!!LAST PIECE,LAST MOMENT.Bugger shop at the other outlet where i put my name and contact number never even call me.Idiot.GAWD i don't wanna wait an additional 4 months.That'll be half a year can!

ZU EN better thank me for reserving hers.

AHHHHHH.And coz of that,i forgot i only ate cheese sausage for the whole day and not a single meal till like freaking 9 plus close to 10.Well well...

Fcking broke,but the pants is nice!*hints all nice ppl out there*

My hints never work with LEOW WEN LIN.damn.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

See what Care Bear you are.

Like,how gross.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

When the storm is raging outside
You're my safest place to hide

Monday, July 24, 2006

It stings.
fcking stupid to just let it flow,once again.
when will it ever end.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

What goes on in a relationship?
What's normal,what's not?
Is it normal?
Are things ok?

I guess there's alot of ways to answer.
As much as i seem to know,somehow,it's all new to me.

I wanna be the one to share your problems.
Please don't let things be left unsaid.
Talk to me.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Dear NCOs 2005/06,

Saying goodbye closes one chapter and marks the start of a new journey.And I'm proud to have managed to psycho you into NCC Ms Tan YiJun.I have faith that you will do well and look at where you are now.=)

I've been sooo detached from the online world since my com crashed nearly a month ago.Though i did manage to sneak online using whoever's com i can lay my hands on,only to find myself missing out so much,and to lose something.
I've been in and out of camps,well not that many but more than enough to make me fall sick everytime.Sometimes i feel so at ease at camps coz it deprives me of civilisation which is fucking difficult to understand.

I can't wait for my trip!Tuesday baby=)

Friday, June 30, 2006

I knew you think it won't last.

Friday, June 09, 2006

Wan Ting's got too much time to spare,and she's psychoing me to join diving in NUS.

I think i can prepare myself for uni too.And prolly be excited.=)

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

The last part is kinda contradicting.Owells.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Sad news aside,chee Tong ( now known as Chee Tong The Clown aka CTTC by ming hui and hana) told me that my site was collecting dust.
Yeah,i know,with spiderwebs and all.
Hana made this.Just for recognition purpose,she highlighted CTTC as well.

This is how spastic 50th CLT Instructors can be armed with flowers Hana bought for $1 each or maybe just $1 for all.

And now besides me and CTTC doing camps,Farhan has joined the league of camp trainers,just that he joined Rocky.But what the hell,he's suffering from occupational hazard.A very serious one.
Will show the shark song video some other time.Where is Ah Fu?

For more information on the outing and twisted stories,visit here,here and here

Chocolate died.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Tell me i'm demanding,to have you by my side as and when i wanna.
Tell me it's not happening, coz i don't deserve your sacrifice.
Tell me i'm mean, coz expectations are demands and demands are expectations.
Tell me i'm lovey,coz of what i'm giving up and having alternatives.
Tell me i made and am making sacrifices,though i don't feel i am.

Coz it's for you,and what i want to do.

Oh i hate how goodbyes sounds with you.

Monday, May 15, 2006

I will be a journey
And you will be my road

Down the stormy path
Love will never come to past

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Oh how i hate falling sick.

Painkillers work wonders but i hate medicine can....=(

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Ah,my only week of break.Show ya my schedule for camps:

19th-22nd-Bedok View Sec
23th-25th-Outram Sec


I'm gonna be so drained.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Ah,been reading aunt agony stuff.Out of so many,these makes sense.

Insecurity is the root of jealousy. It manifests itself in different ways, but I think that it is usually rooted to who you are. The insecurities that you have about yourself or your relationship, no matter how unconscious you may be of them, materialize and project in the form of jealously. I looked back on my earlier post and I realized that because I wasn't 100% on certain aspects of my relationship, that the little jealous monster was rearing its ugly head.

brookem wrote:
I am in a situation at the moment where my girl friend is very chummy with her ex girlfriend who she was seeing for about 9 years, I find it incredibly difficult to see the relationship they still have. I know their history means they still want to chat but it is hard to sit by and not become jealous over the whole situation. My girlfriend is the first woman I have been with. In the straight world people get rid of their bf or gf and that is that, lesbians hang on forever and I find that kinda difficult.
How do other people deal with this situation, do ex partners become an issue in current situations?

toast responded:
Being together for such a long time, especially if it was a pretty supportive and mutually respectful relationship, will most likely create a strong bond of friendship that will last a long time even if relationship itself didn't. It doesn't mean that your girlfriend loves you any less - just that she is probably a very stable person who values good people in her life.

My advice to you would be to honestly tell your girlfriend how you feel, but also tell her that you are trying to come to terms with the fact that they are still close friends. If your gf really wants to be with you, and you with her, you will find a way to work through the awkwardness of the situation with respect and understanding. Even though it may be very hard.
Good luck. Come back and let us know how things go.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

SPOILER-ISH,but i can't help it if the pictures load before you can even press 'X'.

Here's what makeover does to people.
I swear i didn't even give a damn to Mollie with her 'Before' look.Like NO,No,NEVER.

Her hair's gorgeous.Now who was the one who cried with such effing nice hair in Cycle 5?!

OH,Cassandra.That hair was supposed to be shorter before she ran away.-POOF!-

Gorgeous hair.

Friday, April 28, 2006

I thought my superficial life will be over once i get out of the dumbass school.
I thought, for once i have a life.
I thought 2005 was the best year, with so many friends made.
For once, i have friends.
And i thought 2006 will be even better.
I thought i won't once again, lose everything with everything i gave.
I thought everything's ok.

Now,i'm not that sure anymore.

When everything seems right,things will just go wrong.I suck at gaining trust.I think perhaps its true,my EQ is damn blardy low.

Don't make me lose everything again.

Qinlei quoted this from Oprah:

Forgiveness is when you give up all hopes that things could have been any different.

Now i rather you not forgive.

Monday, April 24, 2006



Who is 'smart' and anonymous?!?!??!?!

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Class dinner today.Who's the teacher?